I left my last blog entry hanging (no pun intended) because, to be quite honest, I wasn’t sure how I should finish it. I usually wrap up my thoughts with some sort of profound, meaningful conclusion but yesterday I just couldn’t…probably because I still hadn’t felt a sense of clarity by the time I got to the end.
I’ve been praying for a sign for a few weeks…anything to let me know that this move is what God wants me to do. I was so torn up inside by my fears and doubts that I forgot one vital thing:
God is always in control.
I’m always blessed by Bro. Mel’s preaching every Sunday that I go to church but I know today was special. I know God meant that sermon for me. And how fitting that it was the very last sermon in our in-depth series on the book of Romans (which has been going on for many, many years – even before I truly accepted Christ).
There are just some messages that hit you right in the gut and knock the wind out of you. This was one of them. It was just so personal and I felt God speaking directly to my heart. He calmed every fearful thought that was a hindrance to me, simply by reminding me that everything that happens in my life is in accordance with His will, and that I should realign my goals and ambitions towards it.
I am a fallen, broken, sinful person. I fail God every single day of my life. I will never claim to deserve anything that God gives me and yet He gives me so much. He always comes through whenever I need it the most.
I made the comparison between this move and a canyon swing. After today’s service I realized just how apt it is.
The reason why the leap is so scary is because you HAVE to give up all control. You cannot fight against gravity and you can’t stop yourself from plummeting into the earth.
But God, my safety harness, can.
I can now raise my fists in the air and yell out an enormous “WOOOOOHOOOOO!!! BRING IT ON!”, newly assured that my tried-and-tested, ever-strong, eternal lifeline will swing me in exactly the right direction. Our God is an awesome God!
25 Now to him who is able to establish you in accordance with my gospel, the message I proclaim about Jesus Christ, in keeping with the revelation of the mystery hidden for long ages past, 26 but now revealed and made known through the prophetic writings by the command of the eternal God, so that all the Gentiles might come to the obedience that comes from faith— 27 to the only wise God be glory forever through Jesus Christ! Amen.
-Romans 16:25-27
